Ever After (Happily Sold Seperatly)

I cannot wait to get my wings
Because maybe, just maybe
I will finally be able to fly
Fly away, and (almost) never look back

Part of me wants to just quit everything
and run away and hide
Hide away with a perfect man
Who has offered me a chance to get away

But it's not all that realistic
Things would fall to shambles
With me gone
Gone more than a few hours

I just want a happily ever after
Not this current moment
But eventually.
I think I can wait for him

But for now, I will paint on my wings
Turn my face to the sky
And just hope that someone is listening
And will save me,
From me.

Porcelain

"You thought by now you'd have it all figured out
You can't erase the way it pulls when the seasons change
It hurts sometimes to find where you begin
But you are Perfect Porcelain

The slow and simple melody of tears you cannot keep from me
It's alright if you don't know what you need
I'm right here when
You need someone to see
It's not 'speak or forever hold your peace'
It's alright to take time and find where you've been
You are Perfect Porcelain

When you heart releases
You won't fall to peices
You'll let those old diseases lie
And your heart releases
You won't fall to pieces
And your breath comes crashing in
Like Perfect Porcelain"

This is my current favourite song off of the newest Mariana's Trench CD, "Ever After*"
It speaks to my heart and soul. And I hope it speaks to others.



<3

"Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I'm better off now
Than I ever was with her"

I won't lie, 

I miss her.

But, right now

I'm me

That's it, that's all.

I'm who I want to be

No wild expectations

No judging.

No drama.

And right now? That's exactly what I need.

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger 

Just me, myself and I  

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger 

Stand a little taller  

Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone"

-untitled-

You say you know me,

But you don't.

You say you'll "own" me,

But you won't.

These lives we lead are nothing but a sham of shambles.

We say we know our selves, that we know each other.

Tell me, when did the world turn to lies?

Better yet, tell me, when did it start feeling good to lie.

Was it the day that the realization that one could make anyone believe anything? Or was it the day one realizes they could, and would lose it all, if they told the complete and whole truth?

Think.

Breathe.

Let it all go.

Then move on.

Nobody knows (me) anymore.

And maybe I like it that way...

Who

I'm broken and changed,

Never whole, but made new.

It's a new kind of feeling.

How do I ever tell you, "I'm scared"?

I've been turned upside down.

Left.

Right.

Told I am wrong, 

And not me.

But then who is?

In this crazy life we lead
I've grown up
Moved out
And carried on
Just to keep

Calm

Who I was

Is never coming back.

Just as

Tomorrow will be different

So will I.

So I ask then

Who, is... me?

Just... Breathe.

I need to learn to breathe,

Instead of just freak out

Maybe take some time to dream

Things can get crazy, 

Then again, so can life.

I need to learn to take

The good with the bad.

Maybe if I slow down, 

Maybe if I don't do a million things

Maybe, just maybe

Life might make sense.

But that's not me.

Never has, and maybe never will.

Life has to be busy,

Just to function.

I think I might take some time

Maybe to to breathe

And work through life.

One.

Breath.

At.

A.

Time.

Tonight, tonight.

Take a deep breath
Take a step back
There's only so much a person can take


I might snap tonight
Just up and leave
Try and stop me.
(Nothing can stop this)

I'm a force to be reckoned with
I'm the wind unleashed
I'm stronger than you think
(Nothing can stop me)

Step back,
Let me breathe.
And I swear,
Everything will be okay.


It's my life
And I'm gonna live it
It's all I can do
(You will never stop me)


                   Tonight, I swear that I mean every word...

Dear Me;

Dear past me;

You've made so many choices.

Good and bad.

You've hurt, and been hurt.

Healed, and been healed.

You screwed up.

Big time.

And you fought to make it right.

Thank you for trying

And never giving up.

I love you.

Dear present me;

You worry so much.

About everything.

About nothing.

Breathe.

You can do it.

Just believe.

Please?

I love you.

Dear future me;

I guess you never gave up.

You stayed strong.

And did what you must.

I hope that life is as you planned.

That you are happy.

Be happy.

For us.

I love you

Candy Hearts Don't Bleed

Pink candy hearts,

Packed in a box.

Only one purpose;

Fake " i luv u"'s.

Eaten with joy,

And eaten with despair

Well will people realize

Candy hearts don't bleed.