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You say you know me,

But you don't.

You say you'll "own" me,

But you won't.

These lives we lead are nothing but a sham of shambles.

We say we know our selves, that we know each other.

Tell me, when did the world turn to lies?

Better yet, tell me, when did it start feeling good to lie.

Was it the day that the realization that one could make anyone believe anything? Or was it the day one realizes they could, and would lose it all, if they told the complete and whole truth?

Think.

Breathe.

Let it all go.

Then move on.

Nobody knows (me) anymore.

And maybe I like it that way...

Who

I'm broken and changed,

Never whole, but made new.

It's a new kind of feeling.

How do I ever tell you, "I'm scared"?

I've been turned upside down.

Left.

Right.

Told I am wrong, 

And not me.

But then who is?

In this crazy life we lead
I've grown up
Moved out
And carried on
Just to keep

Calm

Who I was

Is never coming back.

Just as

Tomorrow will be different

So will I.

So I ask then

Who, is... me?

Just... Breathe.

I need to learn to breathe,

Instead of just freak out

Maybe take some time to dream

Things can get crazy, 

Then again, so can life.

I need to learn to take

The good with the bad.

Maybe if I slow down, 

Maybe if I don't do a million things

Maybe, just maybe

Life might make sense.

But that's not me.

Never has, and maybe never will.

Life has to be busy,

Just to function.

I think I might take some time

Maybe to to breathe

And work through life.

One.

Breath.

At.

A.

Time.

Tonight, tonight.

Take a deep breath
Take a step back
There's only so much a person can take


I might snap tonight
Just up and leave
Try and stop me.
(Nothing can stop this)

I'm a force to be reckoned with
I'm the wind unleashed
I'm stronger than you think
(Nothing can stop me)

Step back,
Let me breathe.
And I swear,
Everything will be okay.


It's my life
And I'm gonna live it
It's all I can do
(You will never stop me)


                   Tonight, I swear that I mean every word...

Dear Me;

Dear past me;

You've made so many choices.

Good and bad.

You've hurt, and been hurt.

Healed, and been healed.

You screwed up.

Big time.

And you fought to make it right.

Thank you for trying

And never giving up.

I love you.

Dear present me;

You worry so much.

About everything.

About nothing.

Breathe.

You can do it.

Just believe.

Please?

I love you.

Dear future me;

I guess you never gave up.

You stayed strong.

And did what you must.

I hope that life is as you planned.

That you are happy.

Be happy.

For us.

I love you

Candy Hearts Don't Bleed

Pink candy hearts,

Packed in a box.

Only one purpose;

Fake " i luv u"'s.

Eaten with joy,

And eaten with despair

Well will people realize

Candy hearts don't bleed.

Innuendos

This song really entertains me with all the various names for everything. It's fantastical.



Vulcanize the whoopee stick
In the ham wallet
Cattle prod the oyster ditch
With the lap rocket


Batter dip the cranny ax
In the gut locker
Retrofit the pudding hatch
Ooh la la
With the boink swatter


If i get you in the loop when I make a point to be straight with you then
In lieu of the innuendo in the end know my intent though
I Brazilian wax poetic so pothetically
I don't wanna beat around the bush


Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo
Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo

Marinate the nether rod
In the squish mitten
Power drill the yippee bog
With the dude piston


Pressure wash the quiver bone
In the bitch wrinkle
Cannonball the fiddle cove
Ooh la la
With the pork steeple


If i get you in the loop when I make a point to be straight with you then
In lieu of the innuendo in the end know my intent though
I Brazilian wax poetic so pothetically
I don't wanna beat around the bush


Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo
Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo

Put the you know what in the you know where
Put the you know what in the you know where
Put the you know what in the you know where
Put the you know what in the you know where pronto

Blood Bonds

Too hurt to understand.
Too angry to care.
Too disappointed to try.

I thought that blood, was supposed to be thicker than water. But in our case, I guess not. Your coldness to me has turned the water to ice, and chilled me to the bone.

I always thought that the love of a family was unconditional. You have proven me wrong. So many of you. Between using me for money, ignoring me- your own flesh and blood, trying to kill me, believing rumours, and so, so much more. It hurts. And I give up. I can't force you to love me, or even like me. So I guess asking for respect is a little too much.

To my father; This is the first time in my life that I have been hurt by you, and mad at you. You have let me down so much this time. I don't don't know how to process this. You got my hopes up, that I would see you, TALK to you after all this time. But no, I doubt that will happen. So very much. Anyone can be a father, but it takes a lot to be a dad.

To the rest of my blood bonds that have let me down;

I will always love you, for my love of my family is unconditional. But, I don't have to like you. And I really, really don't like you.

Past is past.

[This place is a hole

But I don't wanna go

I wish we could stay here

 Forever alone

This time that we waste

But I still love your taste]

I like waking up next to you.

You turn your head
And smile at me.

Then kiss my nose

And whisper,
"Hey"

[Sometimes I wish you would leave me

"I'm not sick of you yet"

Is that as good as it gets?

I'll just hide it

Its so easy to come back [to] you]

I think of our time spent together

Just us.

And I can't help but think

That this has to be

More

[I stayed for a while

And waited for words

Seen, but not heard

And struggled to try

My tongues turnin' black

But I'll take you back

Your still the best

More or less]

I know that you think of

Me.

You've told me so.

You're kisses are

More than lust.

Just admit you like me.

[And it hurts me to say

That it hurts me to stay

And it might be all right

If you go

It hurts me to say that 

I want you stay

But it might be alright

If you go]

Past is past

And I can only hope

For a future.

So please

Trust in me.

I think I am finally over

YOU