Sunday 9 September 2007

What Daddy Doesn't Know

What daddy doesn't know is
how much mommy is alone.
What daddy doesn't know is
how much I have grown.
What daddy doesn't know is
my belief in the Lord.
What daddy doesn't know is
how some days I wish I was never born.
What daddy doesn't know is
that I learned to live, love and laugh.
What daddy doesn't know is
that I have trouble with my past.
What daddy doesn't know is
how much I want to see him.
What daddy doesn't know is
how much I like to win.
What daddy doesn't know is
how another will probably walk me down the aisle.
What daddy doesn't know is
that I'm probably not worth any one's while.
What daddy doesn't know is
that I think about him everyday.
What daddy doesn't know is
that my heart hurts in every way.
What daddy doesn't know is
how I cry myself to sleep some nights.
What daddy doesn't know is
how much I hate it when people fight.
What daddy doesn't know is
how I miss the way it was.
What daddy doesn't know is
that I wish I had the wings of a dove.
What daddy doesn't know is
the peace I sometimes feel in my heart.
What daddy doesn't know is
how I hate how far my friends and I are apart.
What daddy doesn't know is
how I'm alone all the time.
What daddy doesn't know is
how nothing is really mine.
What daddy doesn't know is
how I've been abused physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.
What daddy doesn't know is
that most of the abuse hasn't been family.
What daddy doesn't know is
there are some people who are my world.
And most of all
What daddy doesn't know is
daddy's little girl.

2 comments:

.Steph. said...

Sometimes I forget how God gave me a Daddy that is there for me all the days of my life. And how much he cares for me. Reading this made me realize that I should be more thankful that my Daddy loves me more than I can think of. I just want you to know that God loves you soo much i can't even explain his love for you. I really miss you, and Im DYING to see u!!!! Everytime I think of u im gonna cry. Its so hard to think of life without you. But ive managed to live through it. Call me sometime...I donno your number. Love ya.

-Steph-

kaitlin said...

omg. that's beautiful.. me and my dad had a huge fight a little while ago.. and we're now not talking...he pretty much told me that he didn't want to hear my personal opinons.. so i told him that i guess i should stop talking to him because everything i say is going to my personal opinon...

he's getting married...
and he's not even divorced yet...

but anywho...

i told you this because we haven't talked in a while. and i haven't gotten around to writing you another letter.. and i was wondering if i could use this. i'll make sure to say that it was written by you. but i was wondering if i could put it on my facebook or in my notebook full of quotes and poems and such. it's an amazing piece of writing... it's wonderful...