Rush of Fools

Rush Of Fools - Undo


I've been here before, now here I am again

Standing at the door, praying You'll let me back in

To label me a prodigal would be

Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

Turn me around pick me up

Undo what I've become

Bring me back to the place

Of forgiveness and grace

I need You, need Your help

I can't do this myself

You’re the only one who can undo

What I've become

I focused on the score, but I could never win

Trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin
To label me a hypocrite would be

Only scratching the surface of who I've been known to be

Turn me around pick me up

Undo what I've become

Bring me back to the place

Of forgiveness and grace

I need You, need Your help

I can't do this myself

You’re the only one who can undo

What I've become

Make every step lead me back to

The sovereign way that You

Turn me around pick me up

Undo what I've become

Bring me back to the place

Of forgiveness and grace

I need You, need Your help

I can't do this myself

You’re the only one who can undo

What I've become

I was listening to this on my friends iPod When it donned on me.
I really needed to get back on track with God.
I mean lately I had been all over the place
with my faith and just myself
And I just really needed to get back.
So next time that I go a stray, please someone let me know,
if you notice...
Please?

Prefection [not] in Frailty

Still, I remember exactly
how your hand fit into mine.
Your kiss still lingers on my lips.
Tell me when I'll get over this.

is it wrong to assume that you missed me?
because the look in your eyes says that you're dying
to kiss me the touch of your lips is tasteful and
forgiving a part of the past that I don't mind reliving.

It`s hard to wait around for
something that will never happen,
but it`s even harder to stop
when it`s everything you want..♥

I've learned that guys can make the greatest friends.
One of my best friends is a guy, and I can tell him anything.
Except for the fact that I'm absolutely crazy for him.
I usually leave that part out of our conversations.

Don't change anything about yourself for a guy ;
because that one thing that you changed ;
may have been the one thing he loved about you.

shut the heck up.you are worth it.
you're worth every guy in that friken school.
but you don`t see that.
I'm here trying to tell you that you are,
but you won't listen.

so it's not just the phone calls or kodakit's
not just the laughs or smiles ;
it's having each other's back and being a shoulder to cry on;
it's simply loving each other until the day's end.
&& that's what makes us
[ b e s t f r i e n d s] ♥

You know someone is a true friend when,
you are about to break down && cry,
but they will say the stupidest,
most random thing just to see you smile.

Those who cry are stronger than those who hold it inside.

because you're beautiful & you don't know it
because you're smart & you don't believe it.
you're the kind of girl that guys don't get over.
& you're the kind of the kind of other girls get compared to.

Sometimes you have to be like Kelly Clarkson.
You’ve got to breakaway from the past,
say you’re so moving on since he's been gone,
let people know what’s behind your hazel eyes,
realize you got far in your life all because of you and the people you love,
let that person who’s pissing you off know that you’re already gone,
love being addicted to the one you love,
make sure you know where YOUR heart is,
walk away from your problems,
stop hating yourself for losing him,
make sure people can hear you and you can hear them,
and know that life can be such a beautiful disaster.

Best friends aren’t real best friends until they love you for who you are,
not what they want you to be.
They are always there for you no matter what.
Even if you’re fighting and they hate your guts, if you need them, they will be there, no questions asked.
They can always make you laugh even when you are feeling your worst.
They understand you and you don’t even have to tell them.
They are the only ones who know what “I’m okay” really means, when you’re not.
They couldn’t care less about what other people think of you and when you disappoint them,
they will let you know about it.
They are the only people on earth who could completely destroy you,
but would never dream of it.
They are the ones you spend all your time with.
You laugh with them.
You cry with them.
But most of all, best friends are the people you need in your life,
beside you at all times.
They are the people you would be lost without.

I`m the kind of girl who can talk to a
total stranger about anything & everything,
but I can`t tell my best friend how much I`m hurting.
I can let people know that I`m young & not worry about it,
but I can`t tell them how much I miss being younger.
I hate not being invited to parties only cause I feel so alone,
& I can`t understand how I don`t have many friends.
I`m the kind of girl that can be easy to fall for & the kind of girl who falls easily.
I`m the kind of girl who can pick herself up,
& I can switch my feelings in a minute.
There`s only one thing that I know I can`t do;
& that`s believe that I ever thought I`d end up with you.

Sometimes when you look back on a situation,
you realize it wasn't all you thought it was.
Someone walked into your life, you fell in love.
Or did you?Maybe it was only a childish infatuation
.Or maybe it was a brief moment of insanity.

You only find a few people in this world.
A few people who tell you they love you
&& a few who mean it with all their heart

she's beautiful, but she'll never admit it.
music makes her world go round, literally.
friends are her everything.
she's afraid of being alone.
when she smiles her whole face lights up.
& her heart has been broken by a guy who doesn't like her anymore a
nd you know what?
she`s still brave.

She’s got eyes of innocence a face of angels
a personality of a dreamer and
a smile that hides more pain than you can imagine

Tell me something real this time, and maybe I’ll believe you.

just remember ;;no matter who brings you down,
I'll bring you back up because that's just what friends do.

Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart.
If we could just remember this,
I think there would be a lot more compassion
and tolerance in the world.

Shes a daydreamer.
Everyone can see that.
But what they don't see, is her dreams.

There are two kinds of secrets:
Those we keep from others & those we keep from ourselves.

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Photographs of Teen Spirt

Take this photograph

We'll cut it into four.

Three and one,

Four and two.

Maybe this will be the start,

Of the rest of our lives, together

Maybe we can make this work,

I hope that for both our sanities we can

They come between us sometimes

With their trivial problems

But thanks to you,

I am still fighting on

Take my heart and open it up,

See me for who I am,

Scared, awkward and alone

Then lock me back up

Tell no-one what you've seen

Can you see me now?

Can you see who I am?

Tell me who you think I am

And how I truely feel inside

Stop the pain,
Kill the pride,
Spread the love,
Try not to hide yourself.

Can you see us now, as we stand together?

The Whole Darn Thing. && Everything That Comes With It

This post is pretty much what i am thinking about lately.

Throwing away boys, and keeping the men would, yes, be awesome.
But, what makes a man a man, and a boy a boy?
I mean, how can we discern between the both? What happens if we throw away a man and keep a boy? Or Vice-Versa?
Chaos, that's what. Chaos, and hurt, and resentment.
But,....
What makes a man a man? Is it what he has or does not have? Is it age, Lack of purity, or even trials? Honestly I wish I knew, because then I could tell you whether or not it was worth it all.


Where do we draw the line between truth and lies, safety and danger, even betrayal? What about sin? When will we know we've crossed them? Will it be after its all over, when the guilt sets in or will we ever be able to tell?
I believe that we all have the ability to find the lines and test the boundaries, but sometimes people fall in. I don't want to be one of them. I don't want to betray anyone. and I really don't want to sin. Even though its inevitable. The sinning I mean. I wish the lines were drawn in fluorescent colours so that we could see them better. Then, maybe, just maybe, Things might be easier. But I doubt that.


I had a really good talk with one of my friends this morning/last night and I have to say that I'm glad that him and I got to talk. Sometimes, when I'm with him, I feel like I can say anything and not be judged and somehow, he will know exactly how I am feeling or know what I am going through. And that I have to say is amazing, and I am glad that God brought him into my life. I hope that in the future that we get to know each other better. And just get to talk or discuss, anything and everything.

I am really praying hard for my friend Fish's friends, as they are really hurt and ill right now, and she really needs help with this. She shouldn't have to go through this alone. So I just know that with enough people praying and thinking about them that there will be a miracle. So I'm just praying constantly, for them and her. Shawn, Tyler, Anna, Justin, and Kaitlin. It's hard.

I am also praying to continue to repair the relationship between me and one of my closest friends. I hate when her and I cannot talk. But we are slowly getting there. Once again I thank God that she is in my life. And I know that she is destined for great things and that she will touch a great deal of lives, like she did mine.




As I said, this post is just everything that is on my mind right now.... Well not everything. But yeah... This is The Whole Darn Thing && Everything That Comes With It.

Zombies, Cranberries, and Concerts.

"Zombie" -- The Cranberries

***This is a song I might be singing with aarika at our concert on the 31st of May....You should come.***

Another head hangs lowly,
Child is slowly taken.
And the violence caused such silence,
Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me, it's not my family.
In your head, in your head they are fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are crying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, dou, dou, dou, dou, dou...

Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over.
When the vi'lence causes silence,
We must be mistaken.

It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen.
In your head, in your head they're still fighting,
With their tanks and their bombs,
And their bombs and their guns.
In your head, in your head, they are dying...

In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What's in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie?
Hey, hey, hey, hey, oh, oh, oh,
Oh, oh, oh, oh, hey, oh, ya, ya-a...